Wednesday, November 12, 2008 . 3:18 PM
The end is such a scary place to start
everything is torn apart
and i don't know where to go from here
in the end, there's no reason to pretend
i know you won't be back again
i gotta find a way from here..
i don't know where i'll fall down
but i'm sure to hit the ground..
cause it's not over till it's over
every ending's a new beginning
one more chance to get it right
one more chance to get it wrong
its not over till it's over
sometime's nowhere leads to somewhere
and it all starts again
in the end
and it's such a scary place to be
everything is in between
and i don't know where to go from here
in the end i see it's all up to me
to figure out where i should be
im gonna find a way from here
i dont know where i'll fall down
but im sure to hit the ground...
In the end-Jason Reeves
Tomorrow will be liberation day,the offical day to mark the end of 'O's.
I'm sitting here,staring at the computer screen,my fingers typing frantically,I feel so small inside. To realize that tomorrow will be such a scary day,I feel so uneasy and uncertain about what lies ahead of me.
One thing is for sure,the following journey will be a bloody bumpy road to discover,strewned with obstacles & dangers.
Now,I wonder whether I'll be able to make it on my own.
Tuesday, November 11, 2008 . 7:55 AM
Good Morning everyone.It's 7.55 Am & I'm suppose to be asleep.I guess I'll start my chemistry & biology revision early.
It's kinda wierd.Everytime I wake up,my stomach would tie a deadly knot & all the contents will swirl & twirl vigorously as the churning progresses.
It's more like a Auto-alarm to me.A signal to start a brand new day.
What a fantastic way to begin =.=
Today,like no other,I immediately rushed into the washroom & I was fully prepared to launch.However,today I didn't launch properly.All thanks to that poignant odour that is hanging in my grandpa's toliet,I had double the work.I had more messy & gooey work to clear. Instead of just the launch from my anus,I still had to launch stuff* from my foul mouth.I was vomitting yet shitting at the same time! I'm so helpless today.
Again,what a fantastic way to begin =.=
Right now,my stomach feels extremely uncomfortable.It's @ the brink of despair & I'm unable to shake that horrendous sensation.My stomach operates like a tornado today,sweeping through my contents.
I pity my stomach.No,I rather pity myself. : (
WHAT NOW?
I guess,I need a cure.I mean it,a real cure.A cure to my hindrance.Probably,I'll be like Robbie Williams,obsessively engage aliens or extraterrestrials.I don't trust doctors on Earth.Seeking help from Living creatures from MARS or any other planet sounds reliable to me.How I wish my life is like Robbie's life-aliens would be delighted to vist me & probably a 'female humanoid being with feline features' which resembled 'Sekhmet, a half-human, half-lion female god who is prominent in Egyptian mythology' may be my saviour.
Before that can happen,I need a stroke of luck.
If luck is by my side,I may need to get Cosmo tattoos (etched all over my body) and work with Ufologists of US research organisation Enlightened Contact With Extraterrestrial Intelligence (ECTI). I think I'll consider getting the Eye of Horus - also known as the Udjat which represents the Cosmos and is a symbol protection from evil forces.
For the sake of geniune cure,lets track UFOs today.
(*)=you may puke too if I were to tell you.
Monday, November 10, 2008 . 6:45 PM
All else is towering frenzy and distraction.Personally,I think I live my life sideways.
This days,I'm often disorderly complusive and emotionally agitated.
Please,someone,whoever,be kind and save me from this terrible nightmare.
My life is in repair and the entire maintenance or 'MAKE-OVER' is still progressing at a devastating rate.
I can't be myself.I can't sleep.I can't eat.I'm helpless.I need medicine.I need to escape.I need to string back into a brand new life.I need to repair my disfunction heart.
I'm dying,in need of oxygen.Will you spare me some,my friend?
My heart is missing its place.My heart continuously miss its beats.My heart has been taken over by a somber depressing gloom.
WHO CAUSED THIS GLOOM? Who's to blame? no one but me.I'm unforgiven.
Lately,I've been infused with a surge of deep affection(GUILTY PLEASURE).I need someone.
Will you take my hand and carry me someplace?
Somewhere close.Somewhere close if not I'm a heart without a home.
